Well recently, there has been a few projects that have come into my life. They are all great projects. When I say great, I mean WOW, the feeling is basically like: “Woah, I can’t believe I get to be a part of this!” But then you realize that you’re stuck in dead water. Something bad happens, someone leaves, someone isn’t able to commit time to the project, and little stuff like that. It’s like you hit a brick wall.

This is a really crippling feeling, and it has happened to me more than once. One time we were a good ways through the project, maybe 70% done, and then the devs disappeared. I was left alone, to work on my own. Needless to say, that project is now toast. I was really disappointed for a while, I was in a sort of denial. Eventually I got over it.

More recently, I am/was in a project where we haven’t really started. We perfected the ideas. It sounded great. But we just don’t have the people to make it work. Looking at it now, from multiple perspectives, it looks like a bunch of talk, that will never happen. If someone were come along right now, and offer me to code a fairly large project, I would be thankful beyond belief. But it just doesn’t seem plausible, that this would happen.

Then there is this other project, that is so far a perfection. In my opinion, perfect execution of fast planning, and quick execution. I really see this project taking off. Seeing as how the other ones have died, because of lack of knowledge or momentum of motivation and people, this one will have no problem taking off. The project is great, the people are great, and it’s just fun to work on it.

So, these are three examples of the many that I could have talked about, and right now as I type this, I’m seriously contemplating quitting one of them, or even more. I really think that there is a lesson to be learned here. I’ve gone through the same mishap multiple times, and it’s no fun! I think I’m starting to finally learn my lesson, on how things should work.

A friend recently pointed something out to me, by saying something. He said “The thing is I’d love to be an idealist, but I’m a realist about things like this.” This really applies to me as well. I would really love to follow through on each of these projects. They would all be amazing, if you ask me, but I guess when your ideas come crashing down, you have to be a realist.

So basically the question I will have ask myself, and others in the future, is how much time and spirit/soul are you going to invest into the project. If you know it will be a success, and you really like what the idea is, and how it will be executed, then go for it! If for once, a question in your mind comes up, about something like “Should I be doing this?” Your project is probably on the wrong track. This is of course, all from my experience only, I’m sure there are many people who are able to overcome the negativity of the project, and come out on top of everything. I’m also pretty sure that there are people who think that what I’ve thought was a catastrophic mistake, is only a slight mishap. But until I learn how to do this all, “the right way”, I guess I’ll have to do a little bit of trial and error.